2007-12-03

Hello there! Maybe wondering who is the man beside me. Would you believe he is my brother? His name is Neil. Many people cant believe it. They have only one question to ask “why do you have different skin tone color?” Me too i dont know why. But i never deny anything. Actually we tried all kinds of soaps and whitening lotions for him but nothing changed. He told me, he can accept what color he have. It’s not important to him. He dont really care if many people call him “Negro”. (It means black color). What the most important is you have good attitude to make many friends. No need to be Mistisa (Having white color) or to be beautiful…

I have a story here in my mind that connects from my real emotions. And I don’t know how or when will I start. All my life im always thinking why beautiful things and many moments can’t make me happy. Although I laugh but I can’t feel the real joy and happiness in my heart… Until I knew that each one of us needs to have contentment and satisfaction in everything we have and in every thing we do.. I don’t know what is the reason why I am writing this now. And I really don’t know exactly what my point is. But the real thing is, I am so confused in my life now.. Funny isn’t? I wanna write something but I don’t know what suppose to be the topic. If only I can write what exactly how I feel. But there are few words missing. And there many questions here inside my mind.

For sure only time in near future, I can find the perfect answer. If only I can see what will happen next. But if I did.. there’s no surprises in my life. No more challenge will happen. Every time I am thinking I just simply close my eyes and taking my deep breath. And I whisper those words “its okey aimee.. things happens because God has purpose”…… again? Oops.. sorry that’s my motto in life!